Saturday, March 19, 2005
party to forget . .
i can be so stupid sometimes. idk if thats stupidity or i just surrendered my stupidity. one day you'll be so close to this person, the next day its as if you don't exist. idk if i did the right thing . . i know that wasn't the best choice but i didn't want to be a hypocrite. maybe its just not meant to be. i hate how i make drama out of everything. i hate how tactless i could get. i hate how i'm so proper with my language that ghetto people misunderstand me. i hate how that could ruin my reputation. you get a bad reputation just because you use the right language. how messed up is that?! do i have to be a ghetto just to fit in? damn this world.no matter what i do, nothing would change. it wouldn't go back to normal. why do i decide to do things even if i know that i wouldn't be able to handle the consequences?! i miss him soooo bad, its really stressing me out. we haven't really talked-talked for a month already. i just hope i'd emerge from this dilemma stronger than i expect.
- s p r i n g b r e a k -
i'm starting to go out. usually i'd decline my sister's invite to go clubbing @ nyc but since my dilemma started, i started going out with them! i'm glad i went to stitch with them. thanks to rica pineda also for being ever so persuasive. man, i'm surrounded by sexy ladies . . i better do something. i just started going to the gym, thanks to brau for inspiring me.
its hard being 18 here in the u.s. :s i better get a fake id or something of that sort. my neighbor might give me hers since she's got an extra. bouncers make me so nervous :s its tough being a somebody back home and a nobody here. can't use connections . .
giannedoria.multiply.com for pics :)
- manny pacquiao -
i'm guna watch his fight in a while . . hope he wins!! :)
G at 11:07 PM
Tuesday, February 08, 2005
s t r e s s . .
yesterday was just awful. sunday was great and then come monday, disaster! i hate it when that happens. you're thinking everything will start to go your way and suddenly you're down the dumps! i was so hurt with what he did . . i hit him so bad it wasn't even funny . . but that doesn't compare to the pain he has given me. the whole day is a blur to me now. i'm trying to let the pain subside and go on with my life with or without him. i never imagined that i could get hurt this bad. more so, pain coming from him!~ on the brighter side ~
i got paid last friday. :) i got $105 for my first week. i only have $90 left now. don't know where i spent my money. lol. :) the preaching @ time square church last sunday was just unbelievable. its the first time i got engrossed to the preaching there. he was just soooooo right!
our apartment's full now!! hehe . . it looks like a real home already. thanks to my sister's creative juices! lol! i miss one love!! creative juices!! hehe :) i would love to post pictures here, but we can't connect any digital stuff here in school so i can't.
oh, i got my phone already! :) but the thing is i think i can't activate my mms & the t-zones! damn . . but atleast i got it already. i was so excited that i woke up really early just to be able to go with my sister to new york and get the phone! haha . . :p
so there . . getting spaced out.
G at 9:43 AM
Thursday, February 03, 2005
yaix . . haven't visited this for a month!Spring semester just started last week . . and damn, do i have the hardest teachers!!! this semester is all about reading and writing essays! wtf?! i can't see its relevance. argh.
i just started my new job last tuesday! :) i'm the cashier @ music station. so fun. i work with three other guys but they're old already. lol :) like they're in their twenties. i work 6 days a week, almost 7 hours a day and i get $5 an hour. pretty good right? i hope. :)its pretty tiring though. its like i only get an hour break between my classes and my job. its either i go home and take a quick nap or just eat lunch and go straight to work. when i get home at night, i'm dead tired already, i can't read anymore. but i really try to do my best to read a couple of pages.
tuesday was a great day. :) i played volleyball and i played really well . . been hitting with my lefty like crazy!! lol :) and then after that, my friend walked me to the bus stop but we took a detour first to Asian Palace cause we were really hungry!! i got to talk with him and that was the nicest feeling ever. :) he was so proud of me . . haha. after 6 months of "nothings", i was able to tell him what i needed to tell him. we waited for the bus for like an hour so we got to talk more . . it was just so fun! :) and he told me, i remind him of hello kitty!! wtf?! hehe . . funny though. :)
thanks to LOISE for encouraging me to speak out. haay. if it wasn't for her, i'd still be a post. lol :) thanks loise!! i love you & i miss you too. :)
i can't wait to get my N7610 already!! argh . .i waited for that phone for like 4 months and then when i got it last december, it was locked to Globe. i went to china town in new york but they can't open it. so i had to send it back to the p.i. now its february already, the phone is with my aunt in new york alreay. but the thing is, my sister can't seem to find time to get it from her. they just work a street apart from each other and they can't seem to meet. damn. hope she gets it today. i miss the pictures there!!
other stuff that we asked my mum to buy, they're guna send pa like next week. i'm so excited. :) i so love my mum and dad. :)
ooops . . i'm taking up too much time already. this time was supposed to be spent reading my anatomy & physiology book!! got class in 40 minutes. :)
miss you guys!!
G at 10:24 AM
Saturday, January 01, 2005
i miss them sooooo much . .
this is what i left in the Philippines . .
m a f i a during New Year with the lady general!
-> guess who's not there . . me, my sis and kuya mik. :(
i should've gone home.
G at 1:16 PM
Friday, December 31, 2004
getting nostalgic . .
happy new year!i'm here at Atlantic City right now . . before i left NY, i was able to visit my class' "website". i saw some high school pictures . .
one love's baby =)
raizel, sam, jia & moi! vigil.
COCC =)
mwah! =)
"through the door . . " =) - - junior year
smile!! =) - - junior year
softball field =)
justice tree =)
waiting for our music class =) i think . .
waiting for our music class . . =)
alpha chuva! lol =)
pretty seniors!! =)
ak group =)
ak group =)
ak group =)
during grad practice!
love you and miss you one love!
my * * * k a d a * * * - - miss our nights with mr. jose!! . . =)
- - 2 hours and 32 minutes before 2005 =)
G at 9:28 PM
Monday, December 20, 2004
white christmas . . :)
finally it snowed here in Jersey last night.so exciting . .
lol :)
was my first time to see snow!!! :)
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i finally got my bed . . :)
put up the canopy . .
princess-y feel!!
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christmas break . .
texas / atlantic city . .
back to school on 01/05 . . :s
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happy birthday ACHI!! love you and miss you!
ONE LOVE - have fun sa party! i'll call you guys! :)
G at 3:43 PM
Friday, December 03, 2004
chillax . .
december na!!! man, it's getting really cold here. good thing i got my coats already and my UGGS!!! =) we shopped during thanksgiving @ atlantic city. must've spent $300! but its ok. its a need anyway.-november 23-
- crappy day. wasn't able to play volleyball @ bayonne.
- studied for my a&p I lab test (muscles).
-november 24-
- lab test.
- had my eyebrows done with jennifer and debby.
-november 25-
- start of thanksgiving break.
- went to atlantic city for my first turkey day =)
- ate a lot
- videoke party
-november 26-
- shopped at franklin mills
- bought my winter coats and some more other things
- went to my tita's friend's house for another party.
- as usual, ate a lot.
-november 27-
- shopped at target for our apartment
- went to hamilton mall to buy my Uggs
-november 28-
- end of thanksgiving break =(
- went back to jersey city
- fixed our stuff
-november 29-
- K e-mailed me, then i called him and we chatted for a while.
- he called me as soon as he got home from work =)
- we just talked till about 12 something
-november 30-
- i attended my class and i got another A- for my essay.
- went to the computer lab to check my e-mail and some other stuff.
- K went up to me and asked me if i wanted to walk around before he goes to class
- we went home and got my gift for him
- went back to the building
- shopped for our ref while waiting for K
- went home and cleaned the house
- K called me that his class was done already
- K went to my house to pick me up
- chilled for a while
- went to BK to eat
- went to Bayonne
- went to his house to get his clothes
- met up with his friend shaun
- waited for greg and liz, and we went to the gym
- we played volleyball (volleyball was hot!! i kicked ass! they all wanted me to set and stuff.)
- went back to K's place after the game
- helped Karen with her math homework
- K brought me back home
-december 1-
- dissected sheep's brain
- went to dunkin donuts to eat breakfast with debby
- met matt
-december 2-
- fucked up my speech class
- went to secaucus to get our mail
- met up with debby
- bought some drinks
- chilled at home
- matt and nelson came over
- we all got buzzed
-december 3-
- debby slept over
- woke up at 1p
- went to sunflower deli to eat lunch
- went to dunkin donuts to eat our lunch # 2
- went back home to watch tv
- K dropped by =)
i miss him . . but he's got to work. man. =( i'm sad. next time i'll see him, it'll be next tuesday again. crappy. but he promised to call. =)
such a slacker! got lots of stuff to do . .
*** hey jia! miss you too. you went to my house for real?! haha . . you must really miss me huh? kidding. mwah! d4t.
*** gelai! i love your bangs. miss you hun.
*** camille! love you. thanks so much for listening and keeping up with me.
*** loise, where have you been?
*** tata, i want my cellphone!!!!!!!!
G at 4:55 PM